Light; Darkness; Shadows

I see the feedback count dropping every time I visit my Xanga Home (: Haha, no surprise. I've been busy with important events of the three important things in my life clashing in one week (: And another important event the week before! Hahaha, PSB Night, PSLTC, Netball Camp and CmPS Finals. Well, PSB Night was really fun! We were quite worried at first that it would all yknow, not work out and stuff like that. But it was quite okay! :DD And I love OT! It was my best OT experience (: Haha! PSLTC was fun too :D Um, we had groups and stuff like that, and like we had all those training. Which I thought wasn't as mundane as last year's (heh), and nightwalk, :D Yep, which was quite fun cause we were the ones scaring. Okay, but I did a terrible job. I can't scare people! I get scared. HAHA

Netball Camp was exhausting but fun! (: My feet/legs hurt damn bad though. for the first training we did lots of sprints, then we went to Taka for Lunch + a game. Then back to CCAB for training. And then, WALK. WALK, back to school. Omg, I didnt walk so much in my whole entire life. (okay, not really but it was a lot of walking!!) And then we had Amazing Race @ Orchard after that. Double exhaustion okkkk. Walked from Far East all the way to Orchard Central. (: But still quite fun! The next morning we had light training and appraisal. Yay I love appraisal. :D Sadly, my last Netball Appraisal. Sigh, you know I'm already so depressed I'll be leaving rg in a year.

CmPS was hmm. HAHA, stayed over at Mary's. Which was actually quite fun, her hosue has this really comfy feel. Okay but during Set Up I messed up like crap. Omg, scrap book was so so bad. I want to die. The interview today was okay. As in, I really really wanna go to US, but then I know that we may not deserve it kinda thing? And maybe its something good for me if we don't get in? Like, I don't really have the passion. Okay, I suck. ): BUT, I'm actually quite determined now.

Oh yeah, street netball is really fun yknow. But it made me miss church TWO SUNDAYS in a row. AND AND, they made us go back on a Sunday to play the Finals at Kallang, which was two rg teams against each other. Yknow how dumb that sounds! We can play like any time in school! But anyway, we all went home with big money, and milo (Grace walked 45 min home wit like a 5kg milo hamper!!), and Mrs J was very happy (: Yeah we were happy too!

Oh, and then I have to tell you about our (Diana, Becky, Cumtell) fail attempt to watch 2012.  We walked up to Vivo Cinema, and then we walked down, and halfway we decided to go back up to the Cinema ( and we did that another time) and then we went to Lido. Which was ridiculous cause all the time slots were booked. Okay why do everyone wanna see the fictional way of our dying world? I am still dying to watch My Girlfriend Is An Agent with Iliana! :D So after that we just went for Dinner, and played Truth & Dare, which was quite memorable :D

OH YES, You're Beautiful!! This KDrama, is getting better than Boys Over Flowers. HAHA, okay now I have 3 favourite Kdramas - Princess Hours, BOF & You're Beautiful. :D

But if I disappear from your life, would you notice?

And I'm thinking two is better than one

HI, I'm quite happy. I did quite a lot today - CmPS letters, PSBN reminders, PSBWebsite (sorta), Ordering of Badges. :D AND, I got back my GPA which I was really happy about (: And today was fried food day. Hahaha

I just finished the first five episodes of You're Beautfiul. I STILL THINK BOF IS NICER! Hahaha, I'm probably gna start on Iris soon. Geez, I'm supposed to be doing useful things. OH but I finally found time to cut my hair today. Anyway, I don't really care about my hair. Hahaha

Ohoh, I went to the museum on Sundayy!! Finally, alone though cause no one wants to go to the museum ): anyway, it was really interesting! I'm going again during the hols WITH my DSLR. Ohh there are some part that are super scary, like its totally dark and stuffs. Hahaha, I still have my day-of-photography to go (:

Saturday was JAMming (: Haha get it, get it! :D Anyway, we relived childhood memories or something. Played Freeze&Melt + Hide&Seek, which was really fun kk. (: I'm really glad we've all grown closer this year.

Sometimes its hard for me to let things go, to trust God to help me with my shit. I know that he works miracles, but when challenges pop up, the first thing I do is to find a way to solve it myself. I've also realised there's this shit in my life that God has really helped me the past few weeks, when I decided to let go. When shit happened, I prayed. And it turned out right, sorta. And I feel bad, cause I was pretending I didn't have such a shit, on Saturday. I was lying, I think I have more of this shit than some people. But anyhow, I'm not really afraid anymore. (:

We're balancing on a needle; Attractions unsaid and unsure; No spoken confessions, only guesses; But I'll gladly play along; Just to keep you in my bittersweet song.

Fearless;

I know I'm such an asshole to be saying this but, ARGH I almost hate my results. Okay, they are pretty good, but they are all missing like 3 marks to GPA4.0! If we went by the Olevel system, my reportcard would look a lot better. ): WOOHOO, my 3.6 dream hasn't been broken, thanks to Chinese. :D Really, screw the 4 stupid 78/78/78/79 marks for History, SS, Math 2 & Bio.

Post EOYs are more stressful than EOYs. HAHA, seriously like I have tons of stuff to do. Oggay my bad here. (: And who wants to go to the museum/watch airplanes/go around singapore eating+photographing? :DDD Lmk kkkk! I wanna go! No shit, call me. (:

Yknow, I can't play the guitar for nuts. Like I can play simple chords, but other than that, CMI :D I love 500days of summer! Firstly, Summer is damn pretty :D Secondly, the storyline isn't THAT cliche. It's a real life cliche, but not a movie cliche!

I am 15 and I worry about money. ): HAHA, I think its just me spending too much. BUT, all the photo money cost like BOOMZ! Broke this huge hole. :Z I need a breakk. Like, lying in bed watching kdrama all the day long kinda thing. (Btw, if you have good kdrama to recommend, tell me!) Not the going out, shopping kinda thing. Cause, I'm lazy lazy lazyyy. And my retarded cough is not all right yet. Its been like what, 1 month? Still feeling phlegm down my throat. Okay, partly myself to blame, cause I'm eating chocolate every day. Okay I shall stop doing that, and drink herbal tea. (Ew, ttm) I was also thinking of planting a garden in my balcony. But then, I thought, that would only attract LIZARDS, and BUGS, so I dumped that idea.

YOU KNOW, my golf sucks now. Sucks, so damn bad. And I'm so demoralized. Like, its a sport I'm having such a difficult time with. Argh! The ball just doesn't land where I want it to. And I can't play wood! Why?! I mean everyone can play wood, but not iron. And I'm like the opposite! I really suck at wood. ): But I will continue playinggg, and dyinggg, and getting scolded everydayyy.

I realized I can talk a lot of nonsense. Oggay, byez!

Like Sunshine;

Exams are over; That's fast (: Haha, And I don't have school tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after the day after tomorrow. There are a lot of things I have/want to do: PSB Stuff (lots overdue), Netball (trainings+proposals), CmPS (alot, can die), Golf, Photography, Watch KDrama, Bake Bakedrice&mashpotatos, Guitar, Books, Cultural Visits/Museum, +Leisure.

Yknow, Chinese was so bad, Physics too. Like they gave us weird words for Chinese, I mean like it was damn difficult. If O's is as difficult, I will die. Omg, get like F, and then I would have to take Chinese in JC again. I think Physics just suck, why why why did I even take Physics. Its retarded + my humans are better than my sciences. And, I just decided I'm gna go for WEP next year. :D At a hospital. Provided there won't be a new strain of SARS.

Yishuen went for her first swimming competition on Saturday. Haha, oh well it was her first :D Oh and she has declared herself vegetarian. No shit man, she's really not eating meat.

Okay byez, omg I'm so boring I can't stand myself. Haha

The music playing on for only two

Hiiii, oggay life's been pretty good, ups and downs as always :D Uhuh, maybe it's me but this year's mugging seems more fruitful. Cause I can finish like a few topics in one day. Last year, I don't even remember mugging like a week before. I remember mugging the day before. That explains my shit marks. Haha! Oh yeahhh, I realise I'm quite vulgar. I should stop saying shit. I was like 'the worksheet shit' and Pamela was like 'huh? worksheet sheep?' HAHA! I'm a wee bit more confident for Physics. But my Physics is still hopeless. ): I have no idea why, I've had fantastic teachers yknow. Not like Chem. So boring, it's funny. Haha seriously, I was just sitting there, then I realised how awkward the whole lesson was, so I just started laughing and laughing. Haha Yixian thinks I'm nuts sometimes. Alicia too, she keeps asking 'why are you laughing' but there's nothing wrong with laughing. It's an addiction sometimes? Like you laugh and you wanna keep laughing. And for SS, Mr Lee makes me confused every lesson. Meritocracy and Affirmative Action. I left class on Friday supporting AA,  but now I have no idea. Haha! And for History, we have to write two essays!! Oggay I'm complaining, and I'm whiny, but my hand doesn't last that long! Like writing one essay is already a killer to my right hand, and it's not like I'm a left hander too! (what's that word, nvm) :D

I realised I'm quite a terrible person at relationships. All kinds. Cause I never really put in the extra extra effort. And maybe cause I'm scared to, cause sometimes when I do, people don't care shit about it. That just sounds emo right? It's not. ((: OHOH, in my opinion, scientific concepts like evolution do not clash with the Bible. What does the Bible mean to you? To me, the Bible is sorta the Book of Life. It's a book that teaches us how to lead our lives, and tells us more about God, and preaches his will for us. It's not a book of hard facts. I mean, okay the Bible said in the beginning God made the animals and then he made us right? From Genesis, I learnt that God is the Creator, the Beginning, and he will be the end. And that's the lesson I will remember. So even if we evolved from a common ancestor whom which we shared with the chimpanzees, so what? Because I acknowledge that our common ancestor was made by God. And God commanded the 'Sun to a standstill'. Which people in the past then inferred that the Sun revolved around the Earth. I mean, who cares? What I learnt from Joshua, was that he believed and had faith in God. And I learnt that God was all-powerful. The hard facts and knowledge don't matter, it's the wisdom that the Bible encompasses that matters.