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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 13:20:37 GMT

And I'm thinking two is better than one

HI, I'm quite happy. I did quite a lot today - CmPS letters, PSBN reminders, PSBWebsite (sorta), Ordering of Badges. :D AND, I got back my GPA which I was really happy about (: And today was fried food day. Hahaha

I just finished the first five episodes of You're Beautfiul. I STILL THINK BOF IS NICER! Hahaha, I'm probably gna start on Iris soon. Geez, I'm supposed to be doing useful things. OH but I finally found time to cut my hair today. Anyway, I don't really care about my hair. Hahaha

Ohoh, I went to the museum on Sundayy!! Finally, alone though cause no one wants to go to the museum ): anyway, it was really interesting! I'm going again during the hols WITH my DSLR. Ohh there are some part that are super scary, like its totally dark and stuffs. Hahaha, I still have my day-of-photography to go (:

Saturday was JAMming (: Haha get it, get it! :D Anyway, we relived childhood memories or something. Played Freeze&Melt + Hide&Seek, which was really fun kk. (: I'm really glad we've all grown closer this year.

Sometimes its hard for me to let things go, to trust God to help me with my shit. I know that he works miracles, but when challenges pop up, the first thing I do is to find a way to solve it myself. I've also realised there's this shit in my life that God has really helped me the past few weeks, when I decided to let go. When shit happened, I prayed. And it turned out right, sorta. And I feel bad, cause I was pretending I didn't have such a shit, on Saturday. I was lying, I think I have more of this shit than some people. But anyhow, I'm not really afraid anymore. (:

We're balancing on a needle; Attractions unsaid and unsure; No spoken confessions, only guesses; But I'll gladly play along; Just to keep you in my bittersweet song.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 13:15:24 GMT

Fearless;

I know I'm such an asshole to be saying this but, ARGH I almost hate my results. Okay, they are pretty good, but they are all missing like 3 marks to GPA4.0! If we went by the Olevel system, my reportcard would look a lot better. ): WOOHOO, my 3.6 dream hasn't been broken, thanks to Chinese. :D Really, screw the 4 stupid 78/78/78/79 marks for History, SS, Math 2 & Bio.

Post EOYs are more stressful than EOYs. HAHA, seriously like I have tons of stuff to do. Oggay my bad here. (: And who wants to go to the museum/watch airplanes/go around singapore eating+photographing? :DDD Lmk kkkk! I wanna go! No shit, call me. (:

Yknow, I can't play the guitar for nuts. Like I can play simple chords, but other than that, CMI :D I love 500days of summer! Firstly, Summer is damn pretty :D Secondly, the storyline isn't THAT cliche. It's a real life cliche, but not a movie cliche!

I am 15 and I worry about money. ): HAHA, I think its just me spending too much. BUT, all the photo money cost like BOOMZ! Broke this huge hole. :Z I need a breakk. Like, lying in bed watching kdrama all the day long kinda thing. (Btw, if you have good kdrama to recommend, tell me!) Not the going out, shopping kinda thing. Cause, I'm lazy lazy lazyyy. And my retarded cough is not all right yet. Its been like what, 1 month? Still feeling phlegm down my throat. Okay, partly myself to blame, cause I'm eating chocolate every day. Okay I shall stop doing that, and drink herbal tea. (Ew, ttm) I was also thinking of planting a garden in my balcony. But then, I thought, that would only attract LIZARDS, and BUGS, so I dumped that idea.

YOU KNOW, my golf sucks now. Sucks, so damn bad. And I'm so demoralized. Like, its a sport I'm having such a difficult time with. Argh! The ball just doesn't land where I want it to. And I can't play wood! Why?! I mean everyone can play wood, but not iron. And I'm like the opposite! I really suck at wood. ): But I will continue playinggg, and dyinggg, and getting scolded everydayyy.

I realized I can talk a lot of nonsense. Oggay, byez!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 14:03:03 GMT

Like Sunshine;

Exams are over; That's fast (: Haha, And I don't have school tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after the day after tomorrow. There are a lot of things I have/want to do: PSB Stuff (lots overdue), Netball (trainings+proposals), CmPS (alot, can die), Golf, Photography, Watch KDrama, Bake Bakedrice&mashpotatos, Guitar, Books, Cultural Visits/Museum, +Leisure.

Yknow, Chinese was so bad, Physics too. Like they gave us weird words for Chinese, I mean like it was damn difficult. If O's is as difficult, I will die. Omg, get like F, and then I would have to take Chinese in JC again. I think Physics just suck, why why why did I even take Physics. Its retarded + my humans are better than my sciences. And, I just decided I'm gna go for WEP next year. :D At a hospital. Provided there won't be a new strain of SARS.

Yishuen went for her first swimming competition on Saturday. Haha, oh well it was her first :D Oh and she has declared herself vegetarian. No shit man, she's really not eating meat.

Okay byez, omg I'm so boring I can't stand myself. Haha

Monday, September 28, 2009

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 12:13:29 GMT

The music playing on for only two

Hiiii, oggay life's been pretty good, ups and downs as always :D Uhuh, maybe it's me but this year's mugging seems more fruitful. Cause I can finish like a few topics in one day. Last year, I don't even remember mugging like a week before. I remember mugging the day before. That explains my shit marks. Haha! Oh yeahhh, I realise I'm quite vulgar. I should stop saying shit. I was like 'the worksheet shit' and Pamela was like 'huh? worksheet sheep?' HAHA! I'm a wee bit more confident for Physics. But my Physics is still hopeless. ): I have no idea why, I've had fantastic teachers yknow. Not like Chem. So boring, it's funny. Haha seriously, I was just sitting there, then I realised how awkward the whole lesson was, so I just started laughing and laughing. Haha Yixian thinks I'm nuts sometimes. Alicia too, she keeps asking 'why are you laughing' but there's nothing wrong with laughing. It's an addiction sometimes? Like you laugh and you wanna keep laughing. And for SS, Mr Lee makes me confused every lesson. Meritocracy and Affirmative Action. I left class on Friday supporting AA, but now I have no idea. Haha! And for History, we have to write two essays!! Oggay I'm complaining, and I'm whiny, but my hand doesn't last that long! Like writing one essay is already a killer to my right hand, and it's not like I'm a left hander too! (what's that word, nvm) :D

I realised I'm quite a terrible person at relationships. All kinds. Cause I never really put in the extra extra effort. And maybe cause I'm scared to, cause sometimes when I do, people don't care shit about it. That just sounds emo right? It's not. ((: OHOH, in my opinion, scientific concepts like evolution do not clash with the Bible. What does the Bible mean to you? To me, the Bible is sorta the Book of Life. It's a book that teaches us how to lead our lives, and tells us more about God, and preaches his will for us. It's not a book of hard facts. I mean, okay the Bible said in the beginning God made the animals and then he made us right? From Genesis, I learnt that God is the Creator, the Beginning, and he will be the end. And that's the lesson I will remember. So even if we evolved from a common ancestor whom which we shared with the chimpanzees, so what? Because I acknowledge that our common ancestor was made by God. And God commanded the 'Sun to a standstill'. Which people in the past then inferred that the Sun revolved around the Earth. I mean, who cares? What I learnt from Joshua, was that he believed and had faith in God. And I learnt that God was all-powerful. The hard facts and knowledge don't matter, it's the wisdom that the Bible encompasses that matters.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 11:31:07 GMT

You're a trainwreck, but with you I'm in love

Workkkkk. I sound like some whiny student who just doesn't wanna do work. I am (: I'm doing History now, but I don't really know how to do it.

Ogggayy, the school hols were pretty fun! Trainings were fun too, and we had the carnival on Thurs, which was quite wowz! I \played GAAA! Hahha shot a few ((: It's a huge accomplishment k, everyone knows how I can't shoot for nuts! :D I didn't do much studying! ))): I was really supposed to revise Chem and Physics, but complacency... I've been picking up golf again, which well, um, is quite alright I suppose. Took like 5 hours to finally get my shots to go exactly straight instead of the right. :Z

The Church Anniversary was bombz too! Haha, had quite a lot of food I guess. (: But it was the fun of talking, poking fun, being lame, and omg, GOSSIP (ggz, sorry I know its Church), that made it feel like home. (:

Omg thinking of what to write is more mind-boggling than figuring out sources. I AM A BORING PERSON, I'm bored reading my own post. FYH, burn in hell! Hahaha, kidding!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 12:19:25 GMT

You've got a smile that could light up this whole town

And the songs of heaven rise to you alone
No weeping,
No hurt or pain
No suffering
You hold me now
No darkness,
No sick or lame,
No hiding,
You hold me now

When I hear this song, I can just remember how it was, when everyone around me raised their hands, and chorused together: "You hold me now". And I feel Him.

Yesterday's bible study was quite fun, cause I liked the food. (: Hahaha! And it was meaningful ofcourse. Hmm watched the match after that. I feel inspired! But at the same time, I realised I gotta work on my physical build. ): Core, and speed. Really. After that, fun with gossip :D Today after Church we watched GI Joe, omg love it ttm! And yep went to Diana's house. Haha, I love GuitarHero again. AHH, I do have a life. I think (:

Can't you see?

Friday, August 21, 2009

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 12:07:55 GMT

I'm on the bleachers;

Wow feels like a load off my mind (: Wellll, SS was pretty bad today, but English was quite okay. Yknow sometimes you just get damn mad at yourself for panicking on the spot and not be able to produce the answers that you actually know? It's just annoying, looks like I'm not there yet for public Q&A. Sucks. Hah, and for Chinese I didn't know what I was writing. And for History I wasn't answering the question. At least CmPS's temporarily out of the picture. I should actually start studying. I only do homework, I don't study. ):

Oh yeah, yesterday I learnt the lesson of Honesty. Haha, okay it seems really minor but its quite cool okay! At first cause we were lazy people so we didn't tell Ms Chng we didn't run the track with the weights, but then in the end we felt so guilty we told her and she excused us from it :D

Things are getting mundane.

Friday, August 07, 2009

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 11:54:54 GMT

Won't you cut me some slack?

Happy National Day! Oggay a bit early but I won't be posting and hopefully, not touching the computer for the next few days (: Anyway, I think I'm actually proud to be a Singaporean. (CLICHE) But yeah, being born here, I find myself fortunate, and I thank God for all that I have here. I could have been worse off, or maybe even better off, somewhere else, but who knows? Just be grateful for what you have. Hahaha, and I'm pro-PAP (: Although I think there are many things that our new generation is unhappy with, like freedom of speech etc, I would say the work the government did to build Singapore up is more than commendable. I know for one thing, is that I'll never be able to do the work Mr LKY did. From a disorientated town, to a flourishing city, in just 40+ years. I have yet to know of any country that has seen such rapid progress in just merely 44 years. I disagree sometimes with what the government does (eg 1990s elections), but on National Day, well done to the government. I say, we owe them a lot more than we think we do. (:

Today we watched UP. Ogggayyy, storyline was a bit strange though. Hahha, but it's really quite cute, but not exactly worth 8 bucks. Heh, then we went to ION. Hmm about that place. It's really really crowded. That's why I don't like it. But it still looks interesting and I wanna go back to explore the ENTIRE place. Hahah, saw A and R there too! Heh (: OH YES, I have to stop saying 'like'. Apparently they counted 159 of 'like's I said during my speech+interview on Thurs. One hundred and fifty nine. Wow. I didn't know I had such a bad habit. Hahaha

Yknow, I can't stand Math. Seriously. Argh although its a bit boring sometimes, I hate it when like it becomes super challenging. Yes, I am a very lazy kid. No, actually, I hate not being able to solve the questions. THAT, is what I don't like about Math (:

OHOH, I thought of a really cool thing! Yknow what we should do? We should like go around Singapore and take photographs of everyone! So you'll have like 4mil plus pictures! And it isnt the portrait kind (so boring), it's like the abstract, artistic kind! Yeahhhh, a bit impossible, but hey, that would be really really cool. And make a collage with the pictures! :DD

Hahahahaha this reminds me of UP!

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 13:50:48 GMT

Love that tears these walls down;

Woah I haven't blogged in like agesss. (: Hillsongs last Saturday was really awesome. I don't know, I think it's a really bad excuse but that's the one place I really feel that I can worship freely. I know worship is supposed to be your own thing, like you shouldn't be afraid of what people say or something. But it's not that I'm afraid, it's that I don't feel it as much. Okay I really suck, but heh, just being honest. But I felt what you call recharged. It's been a long time. It's funny cause I know after a while, this hype will fade off, but a hype can fade off, as long as your interest doesn't. It's different you know. So I've been doing QT again, and reading the book Cass&all got for me for my birthday. (: I guess I feel more what you call 'monitored', like more aware of what's happening in my life. HAHA

School's been whizzing past week after week. Buried under the shitloads of work and stuffs. :D The Chinese PT just killed me. I have no idea how people can write so beautifully in Chinese. As in not literally. Like I just can't do it for nuts. But I'm determined to get at least a B for Higher Chinese next year k. Heh, I find myself doing more work now. That's way better. Cause I used to just slack and slack and waste my time away. Ohohoh, I watched like HomeRun, omg it's damn sad I tell you. And I realised that there's more to what it seems to be (:

My throat is soreeeee. So bad that I couldn't even say the word 'two' on Saturday. Like only air came out. Hahaha, and I completely lost my voice on Saturday, practically whispering on the phone. Aron was like 'What?!' 3 times over the phone. HAHA. And then my mummy and aunty made me drink like tons of weird chinese stuffs, but they worked man! I mean I woke up today and it felt a lot better. But then it got worse again, cause I think I ate some wrong stuffs. Cause now I'm coughing like I've some asthma attack (: Haha and it hurts too! Like you know you swallow and it feels like there's a lump there. Hahaha

Gosh I look fugly, hahahahha

Friday, July 17, 2009

Fri, 17 Jul 2009 11:32:05 GMT

Because there's sunshine in your smile;

There is no aircon in school. ): But thank God I'm sitting by the windows. Hehh. Actually my sitting place now is quite fun, (: Training was so bad on Thursday. It's times like these when I really really dread Netball. I think. Anyway, I realised that I'm quite a greedy person. Like I'm never satisfied with what I have, I always want more. But that ain't good at alll, cause sometimes you're given something smaller because you can make a difference in that small place, and that place is your calling. (:

Actually time's been sweeping past. It's like before I know it, another week's gone. And yep, I have lots of work piling up. Haha! Ohh yeahh I've been watching this Jap Drama called Absolute Boyfriend. Ehh, its surprising nice. But the ending was very sad ): Like I cried. HAHA Alicia think watching all these dramas make me some cheena freak. Hahaha, ohoh moxie today was so bad. And then I met laoshi after then she said I didn't know how to write a lot of words. Whooooops!